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[Nov. 22nd, 2004|05:06 pm] |
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obivously some people have some problems with my journal well just get over it like i said before if you want to read it fine and if you dont thats fine too but im just being honest and i didnt say any ones name so you can just get over that real fast im tired of have a live journal so this is the last entry since i guess people just dont know how to take it? |
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[Nov. 16th, 2004|10:10 pm] |
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woah! this year has gone by extremely fast and so many things are different! only if a blink of an eye would take back mistakes...what a wonderful power? or not? to me personally ive seen in some profiles that if you could start your life over put this is your profile. well why start your life over? just becasue you made some mistake in your life and some more than others keep going. dont quit. i know this might seem like something stupid but i pwesonally know people that have committed suicide. well the question is why? everyone has hard times like example my parents split up two weeks before my big day of freshman year of highschool what do i do? go to drum camp and keep going with my life or take a gun to my head? and if you think im stupid for writing this go ahead think what you want it is your option to read my journal any way not to sound cocky but im just be as honest as i can. and recently i mean what the hell has high school done to people?! gesus it is horrific i spend one summer away from the closest people i know i come back and there differnt ether turned slutty or is ditching there friends for there new boyfriend or what ever it goes on down the list wow i guess this is just alot to get out since i have not written in here for like a month or two. Also i guess this is just a conclusion dont you hate assumers? well i dont like it when people here something and just ASSUME you are talking about them like example the other day i asked a friend why he kissed this girl no big deal right? well the girl walks in when i say her name and automaticly ASSUMES i was talking gossip about her or shit like that i mean get over it! get a life and stop caring what other people think about you to be honest and if you read this you know why you are but you talk about me and i dont give a shit what you have to say about me because guess what? i dont care because it doesnt effect me cuz your not close to me at all so maybe you should think about that before you assume something again . well okay maybe this is all too powerful but i mean it and im not going to try to be nice about it im tired of being the one who says it in a nice way so then you just move on. no not me anymore sometimes i just wonder who made the mistake? me or you. but i guess youll have to be the one who figures that out when you get the time to. and this is basically talking about a few people and im sure 1 person knows exactly who they are. well time to go get some sleep watch law and order and keep going on with the life i dont want to start over. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|09:44 pm] |
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WOW alot of things has happened since the last time i wrote well first thing wee got 1st in prelims and 3rd in finals!! i mean awsome its my freashman year i will remeber this for like the reast of my life yea that was awsome and hm m o yea! i did really good on my report card which is a pretty good start i mean better then i ever did in middle school so thats pretty cool and yea well my parents are still seperated and things i guess are slowly getting better and lets see what else to talk about not much with the whole guy thing i guess to be honest i dont even know who i like weird i know but hmm so much time with band and everything else in my life i dont even have time in the day to really think about who i like
Emily's Schedule
Monday school after school band rehearsal
turesday school then after school band reheasal
wensday school lessons with pat
thursday morning band school go home sleep
friday morning band school football game sleep
so as you can tell everyday i have something for band ahh what a week well i have to wake up and start a tuesday so im out ttyl |
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| life |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|11:27 pm] |
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ive realized im not going to have time to update this very much anymore which sucks but o well lets see on monday we didnt have school tuesday eh was okay day pretty good i guess wensday after school sectional with pit it was funny thursday was our football game it was fun but after everygame i get sick or something so it sucks and today was a horrible day! one bad thing after another and then we had band yea that sucked and now im home so yea...well liking someone you never talk to sucks too you like them but you dont really know them hmm sounds weird.. yay!!!!OC comes back on, on thursday im so excited i feel like such a dork planning my day around that show but if you watch once youll just watch it over and over so hmm trying to think of crap to say truman and faith going out awsome great couple forget about jt i hate to say that about my brother but if he is going to be like that let him do it katy and garrett back together im glad i knew they would be love birds once again and for me single liking it i guess but again at times hate it i wish truman would come to bowie please truman! we all miss you... well i am going to go watch like 40th episode of csi ive watched in the past week im out bye |
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| everything thats been going on... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2004|01:41 am] |
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well i realized i havent updated this sexy journal for like a month so i figured i would. well alots been going on i started high school yay yes if ur wondering im a lil fishy but hey i think its cool we have so much more freedon and they treet us like human beings not just some idiot trying to get an education so i like that and lets see what else well my parents are finally getting a divorce i mean i knew it was going to come soon and then all of a sudden it happened so my dad moved out and we see each other like once a week so i guess its ok well now for the update on what i did today i went to captain bringdown and the buzzkillers, firekills and some other band i forgots concert it was fun i saw david shane dylan and garrett cyndy and jt came along i really needed to get out of the house and i was really glad to see david and shane there really cool guys... well i think im going to get some sleep ill update later |
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| this week |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|10:10 pm] |
well i havent written in ths thing like huhh forever! but i am now well so far this week i have been at band camp your probally thinking omg band geek or why would you waiste your time well its been fun and since im in pit were a little bit on the slcaker side during our break we go out in the hall get or blankets and watch maury or whatever is on tv so its really cool and tommorow there is a drumline swim party so im really excited and yea recently i havent been thinkin about guys i mean i like them but i dont have time to care about just one all the time and the people i like are the same way they have other things to do so i guess its cool eh.. and omg yesturday when we were in our drumline meeting every ones cell phones were ringing and we were all dancing and then all of the sudden buck farted! and we all turned around and it was so funny man i think this year is going to be really fun and all the freshman have to sing this beanie song and wear hats on the head and its embarrising but so funny well thats all i have to say for now...
kerry or bush? |
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[Jul. 29th, 2004|01:11 am] |
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god things are so fucked up... i hate it when you like someone and i guess they just dont feel the same way back it sucks because even if your willing to try to make it work but there not. and then theres 2 other people on ur mind you like but then when you think bout them ur thoguhts just go back to the first person you like well...thats exactly how i feel to be honest im pretty much over the guy i used to like yea they will remain friends but ive realized ive been waisting my time when there are so many more fishes in the sea (guys in the world)so why waiste my time with the one that really no matter what we did it would never work out again?and i think its stupid why do girls/boys care about each so much i mean i care about the people i like but then i just am like what the hell i have better things to do. recently ive been thinking that were all going to die sad but very very true so if everything could just be good that would be great but its not and starting high school doesnt help much i dunno lets just say bowie is a very intemidating school (spelling sorry) you just look at the people and want to die and marching band will take over my life but im really glad im in band no im not a band geek that devotes all my free time to practicing but i hoping that music will take me somewhere in life or something well i guess im in a better mood than i was 20 minutes ago well ill just update later |
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| today... |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|12:38 am] |
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well not much has happened since the last time i updated i think yesturday but today at drum camp we got our first piece of music i actually think its pretty cool its an old song that our new director got out of a box hah good way to pick music just pull it out of box and there its your new music well hes pretty cool i mean not the best but hes close he makes very good points to his little speaches but yea one day a friend told me to listen to the postal service and now i really like that band its soothing music well yea ill update later |
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| this week or something like that |
[Jul. 26th, 2004|10:36 pm] |
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well i havent updated in a while considering the fact i used to write in this thing like every day so yea today we started drum camp eh it was cool but we dont have music and have to remember it and i kinda have a bad short term memory but if i get something stuck in my head ill never forget it so i just need to practing like every day for that to work which i would have to practice every day anyway so its cool yea anyways things are still confusing certain people might know what im talking about but ahhh! i dunno life is explained in one expression word right now "eh" i mean "eh" why?!! why cant it be "great" i dunno maybe cuz' this world is one crazy m well i guess thats enough for right now ill update later maybe tommorow |
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[Jul. 24th, 2004|11:33 pm] |
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well ok i might seem like a stupid blonde or just a really slow person but i know when somethings going on thats not right i dont know what to belive nor who i hate liking two people at the same time especially because there friends i feel weird i dont know what to think everythings weird i wish i didnt like both of them or one of them was extremely mean and ugly but there not they are 2 great guys and have great personalitys but one of them is just leaving out a big piece of information that i dont know i just hope its not a game i hate it when that happens you meet a great person and think they are the coolest person you ever met and then it turns out there nothing what you thoguth they were im scared i dont want to find that out so yea anways on monday i have drumline camp im excited and then again im not im going to miss montoya and the new director is from juliard and o heard hes really nice but its going to be different but im glad i joined band its been alot of fun ok im confused but then again im happy i dont know why i was talknig to kristal shes like man you always get the guys that either cheat or dontt treat you with respect and i was like damn straight i need to find a guy who cares and doesnt cheat im going to do that this year or i will stay single im not going to do that again well i guess ill just update later |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2004|09:22 pm] |
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well not much has happened this week i went to san antonio on wesnday and then thursday went percussion lessons and came up to my grandmas house with christina then today we went to shane and davids! it was really fun but shane talked back to his mom and it wasnt a good thing he got in big trouble but other than that it was fun really fun ok well anyways i need to go ill update later |
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[Jul. 19th, 2004|03:01 pm] |
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yea so i havent updated in a while today i am going to shanes house yay well not much has happened (crisis wise) so i really have nothing to say |
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| today and yesturday and umm whenever else |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|01:26 am] |
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well not alot has happened recently well today i stayed home and hung out then went with my mom just out around it was fun and at the moment i am just talking to shane and david and ealrier we had micheal on the phone ands they didnt know each other so it was pretty funny so yea anyways i really have nothing to say so ill just update later |
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[Jul. 10th, 2004|06:35 pm] |
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well yesturday i got back from the beach it was fun me and hannah met this guy named trey he is from dallas and it was cool its nice to relate to someone you dont even know and then we wanted to hang out at night so we met up and we went in this lil place and then we went out to the beach and walked it was fun then yea now were back in austin and i just woke up a like slept the whole day but yea i guess ill update later |
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[Jul. 7th, 2004|01:39 am] |
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well right now im in corpus christi its fun cuz'im with garrett truman jt and hannah and were just chillin even tho corpus is not far away its nice to be some where else for a few days so yea man i hate everything thats going on right now certain people know what im talking bout and t just sucks and summer is almost over and in like 2 weeks i start band camp (o joy) well it will be boring but on december 26 were going to arizona for bad so im sure all the practice will pay off so anyways it is going to suck going to high school yea im sure there is good thinga bout it but i mean a majority of my frieds were 7th graders so they will still be back at covington poor them im glad hannah got to come with me to the beach cuz' she is going to crockett so i wont get to see her much well i have a major prblem i like 3 people and man talk bout something thats hard well there you go you like all of them but you dont want to just pick one if you understand what i mean well ill update later |
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| truman garrett and jt |
[Jul. 6th, 2004|12:42 am] |
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man this is so so so funny truman and jt are practicing their fighting skills and everytime they do something they like fall and jt just tried to like jump kick and he fell over pn a chair man that was such a kodack moment anyways im excited bout going to corpus even tho ive been there so many times i cant count but its just nice to get out of austin for a while well i might take my lap top with me and if i do ill update there |
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| today |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|07:08 pm] |
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well today i woke up at like 2 cuz' i didnt go to bned till 6:30 this morning because i was watching somethings gotta give that was such a good movie it was happy and sad but really good well anyways i came home and watched tv and then fell asleep again cuz i didnt feel good and now im just packing for the beach im excited i guess well last night was so crazy im still a little worried well ill update later |
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| today july 4th!! |
[Jul. 5th, 2004|03:24 am] |
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today was pretty tight at first i went to memes (my grandma) house and i layed out in the pool and chilled with garrett jt wes my aunt mom ucle aunt and some other peeps then at 530 cj picked me up and we went to buda to this party it was fun for some reason watching drunk people really amuses me and me and cj swam and hung out and then watched fire works and then when like the party kinda of dulled out we were getting ready to leave and this one guy (hes cool)couldnt move and i kinda thought it was a joke until i regained my smartness and realized i was at a party with drunks and he tried to go down the stairs and people had to help him and stuff it was kinda funny but at the same time scary and now me and cj are just at her house chillen and even though me and her are having fun good things are not. i cant really mention names but the things that are happenin' are not good actually not even at all they quite scary right now. i wish there was a time machine and i could go back a few months or year and just change things but if i could that wouldnt be life. life is supposed to rough sometimes but i never thought it would get like this im telling myself im in a dream because thats what i want to belive but im not and i know it. its just
this year has been so different from all the other years maybe growing up is difficult im not sure because i cant even explain how i feel there is no words and if there was there would be a new dictionary to explain them. i have realized i dont want to be a fuck up robbie was trying to explain things to me and he said watch out you might be next and thats totally true looking on my family and friends i dont want to be some dope head or drunk i want to have a life a good life there is no normal life but there is a good life and thats what i want i am going to proove my family wrong i wont turn out like them i am glad to say im not addicted to heroin i dont drink im not a pot head and that is a fact this is really hard but a friend said he tried heroin and he thinks i care to much about it but i care because experience. my uncle (close close friend not blood related) died on the highway in his car from a heroin OD i went to his funeral not knowing how he died till i overheard family talking bout it and when i asked how he died they maid up some lowsy story thinking i wouldnt know but i do and it hurts and my other uncle is still alive thank god but i dont see him we dont even talk on the phone he lives in hawaii hes a very brilliant person but his mind is not the same as yours and mine he is not in the world hes in his one world and to be honest i might not even know myabe one day hes going to die and i wont know because we dont talk to him my cousins (his sons) dont even talk to him they actually have an adopted dad and i consider him my uncle because he is there for the family. the only reason why i am saying this is because i dont want that friend to be next knock on wood it wont but you never know i couldnt even tell when my uncle that died was on heroin until we got a call and hes dead and that cant happen to my friend i wont let it happen i cant go to another funeral i have been to so many maybe not for the same reason but i cant go to another one at least not now. my friend (which im referring this person as my friend because i think it should be confidential) i consider them a best friend i can tell them things and they can tell me things because we are close like that and if he was next i dont know what i would do with out them sounds crazy but true i wont let that happen robbie and i were talking and robbie wont let that happen either because my friend may not realize it but alot of people care and love him no one would want him to be gone i have so much more on my mind but if i type it it wouldnt make sence becasue its all a big blurr in my head so ill just update later |
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| yesturday and today and whatever else |
[Jul. 3rd, 2004|04:57 pm] |
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well yesturday cj came over and we hung out and stuff then we went to get her stuff so she can spend the night and i drive alot so my dad let me drive to her house but then on the way back her mom said it was okay if she drove so she got in the car and she did pretty good i was just so scared its not everyday that one of ur friends gets in ur car and drives to ur house well anyways we came back and talked to peeps well roy called then my friend shane called and i was trying to talk to them both at the same time but it was so funny i love when i do that to people because one of them thinks im talking to them but im really talking to the other person well anyways o and i forgot i was talking to roys lil cousin and he is so cute it was so adorbal i love little kids they are so cute but yea and then me and cj went to bed this morning and woke up about 1 in the after noon and we just hung out then she went home just a few minutes ago at like 430 and soon im going to go to trumans parents gig at waterloo ice house its going to be fun cuz' were meeting a bunch of peeps there so it'll be awsome im excited and tommorow its july 4th! so ill be at a party and then monday im packing for the beach which im excited to be going to cuz' truman is going with us! and so is someone else well i really dont know what else to say at the moment ill update later |
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